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bluebren_livejournal) wrote2005-09-28 11:19 pm
bluebren_livejournal) wrote2005-09-28 11:19 pm
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Why, Gmail? Why do you think I need 100 invites? I couldn't give them away when I had 6!
I spilled a whole bunch of rubber cement in my bag this morning, too! I had to just... CARRY my notebooks and stuff around while it dried. Argh. Fortunately, now it's really really easy to clean up. It just shrivels up into little gray rubber cement goobers, leaving the bag perfectly clean. :D I was really late to class, but many worse spills could have been made.
The other day, these two guys found me in the art building and showed me these really awful, no-effort floor plans for a 'club' they had to pretend to start for a Business project, and they wanted [to pay me] to do a more attractive rendering of some views of the interior. Because... I was there. We did not know each other. And I was like, huh, interesting, and they said GREAT we'll call you! ...I didn't realize I agreed to do it? I said to me.
So anyway, I was supposed to meet them yesterday and I didn't get there in time, so I called (since they weren't there anymore) and I told them I didn't feel like it! I wanted to point out that I too had a lot of projects that unfortunately I didn't get to pay someone else to do, but I didn't. Quite. I DID say that well, if this part of the project wasn't required, then it's no big deal that I ditched you in the most unclassy way possible (:D) and if it was, can you explain to me the ethics of hiring it out to other people? I BET YOU CAN'T. And he thanked me anyway and I felt really lame, and drove home.
That's the problem with me! See, I used to be really guilt-driven and thinking pleasing people was just the best interpersonal relationship policy since sliced bread. But then I got tired of that and, as with all personality shifts, I am now in the Unpleasant Overcompensation Phase! If something annoys me or whatever, I no longer feel like it's my duty to live with it quietly and hope the other person does something to change it someday. I keep thinking of how I'm going to go off on all these Awesome Righteous Backtalk sprees against authority and who knows, but I never do, and all that pent-up snippiness gets released on people I think I can get away with. Like friends, or people I figure I'll never see again.
It's not a good way to be. :( I know this. People don't like me very much anymore.
They really don't.
...I was going to write up how the first night of our D&D game went, but that's enough for now.
I spilled a whole bunch of rubber cement in my bag this morning, too! I had to just... CARRY my notebooks and stuff around while it dried. Argh. Fortunately, now it's really really easy to clean up. It just shrivels up into little gray rubber cement goobers, leaving the bag perfectly clean. :D I was really late to class, but many worse spills could have been made.
The other day, these two guys found me in the art building and showed me these really awful, no-effort floor plans for a 'club' they had to pretend to start for a Business project, and they wanted [to pay me] to do a more attractive rendering of some views of the interior. Because... I was there. We did not know each other. And I was like, huh, interesting, and they said GREAT we'll call you! ...I didn't realize I agreed to do it? I said to me.
So anyway, I was supposed to meet them yesterday and I didn't get there in time, so I called (since they weren't there anymore) and I told them I didn't feel like it! I wanted to point out that I too had a lot of projects that unfortunately I didn't get to pay someone else to do, but I didn't. Quite. I DID say that well, if this part of the project wasn't required, then it's no big deal that I ditched you in the most unclassy way possible (:D) and if it was, can you explain to me the ethics of hiring it out to other people? I BET YOU CAN'T. And he thanked me anyway and I felt really lame, and drove home.
That's the problem with me! See, I used to be really guilt-driven and thinking pleasing people was just the best interpersonal relationship policy since sliced bread. But then I got tired of that and, as with all personality shifts, I am now in the Unpleasant Overcompensation Phase! If something annoys me or whatever, I no longer feel like it's my duty to live with it quietly and hope the other person does something to change it someday. I keep thinking of how I'm going to go off on all these Awesome Righteous Backtalk sprees against authority and who knows, but I never do, and all that pent-up snippiness gets released on people I think I can get away with. Like friends, or people I figure I'll never see again.
It's not a good way to be. :( I know this. People don't like me very much anymore.
They really don't.
...I was going to write up how the first night of our D&D game went, but that's enough for now.
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I have like 400 invites...mainly 'cuase I have 4 accounts. Too bad I can't sell them.
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I mean, I stay quiet b/c my primary objective in almost any situation is to promote harmony, but more often than I expect, I get tired of trying to accommodate to selfish/hard-to-please people and wish I could go on those awesome backtalk sprees to shut them up. So I envy the way you can tell people straight up what you think to instigate immediate change or at least express the irritation you feel right then and there.
Sokay, Brenna. *hug* And yea for telling those guys off. :)
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*hugs*
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Yeah, I wouldn't have helped those guys...unless it was a lot of money. XD
We always have to constantly edit and revise our attitudes and approaches to interacting with other people...and of course, this is especially difficult in large groups filled with many and varying personalities. Although, when telling people straight up how you feel about something you have to be careful. I've often done that and then later realized I was too harsh or meticulous.
And now for something completely different...IT'S D&D tonight!! And Celeste is making scones, sw00t!!